Are You Willing to Pay the Price?

I believe that everything in life has a price.

It doesn’t necessarily have to be a monetary price, but everything you do or don’t have has a price.


I was sitting in all weekend workshop today, and I had a huge realisation. One that has put so much in perspective for me. It was someone else in the group that pointed out to me – “What price can you really put on saving your life?”

I can tell you that I’ve INVESTED an incredible amount of time, energy, money and resources in me.

It has been INVALUABLE to me, and my life, a price I’ve been willing to pay in so many ways.

For me, there have been two main reasons why I’ve done it. Firstly because I decided that I was worth it. I hadn’t felt like I was worth anything for a very long time. And secondly, I knew in my heart that my life was destined for so much more than what I was allowing myself to have.

There are so many amazing opportunities waiting out there for you to discover that can help empower your life in so many ways. But only you can make the decision. No one else can want it, or do it for you.

And it will take COURAGE, a shit load of COURAGE.

But I encourage you to take the first step. The first step will be your HARDEST, but it will be the GREATEST step you will ever take.

Because once you take that step, you can’t look back.

Yes you might not have any idea where you are going, and that might be scary, but still take that step. Don’t be tempted to go back into what is comfortable. Because being comfortable will only keep you where you are!

But even if you decide to stay where you are, aren’t you are paying a price for that too?


So I ask you what PRICE for you is greater?


I See You Mumma…

I See You Mumma…

Rushing through the school gate to make sure your kids get to class on time.


I See You Mumma…

Sitting there stroking your little one’s hair as they are full of snot, stuffy in the chest, and just want a cuddle from you.


I See You Mumma…

Sorting through the mess on the dining table with school bags, washing, paperwork, toys, & junk mail just so you can sit down to eat a meal whatever that may be tonight.


I See You Mumma…

Laying in bed late at night thinking about the day, the mind unable to switch off with the multitude of things to remember for tomorrow, don’t forget the show and tell, and the library books are now overdue!


I See You Mumma…

In the car taking the kids to appointments, drop offs, on the way to the shops, putting bags in, and then bags out all prepared for their next destination.


I See You Mumma…

Feeling like you’re running on empty, wondering when you will be able to get just a few hours of rest, that feeling becoming more and more like a distant memory.


I See You Mumma…

Sitting at the traffic lights, looking at your clock driving back to school from work, making sure you are there on time, so that you are the first one your child sees and smiles at as they come running out of the classroom.


I See You Mumma…

For all that you are.

I See You Mumma…

For all that you so willingly give.


Because you are doing fucking amazing!!!!

You are doing the very best you can. And that is all you can ever do!


So just in case you didn’t tell yourself that today, this is for you.

Just don’t forget about YOU. Because you are just as important as those children that you love so deeply.

YOU need to feel that love for yourself too.

If your children could tell you, they only want what is best for you too.





Inner Voice… Yes… I’m Listening…


We all have that inner voice within us.

It may be a really gentle, quiet, soft voice, but it’s there.


It’s there to guide us.

It’s there to protect us.

It’s there to tell us everything is going to be okay.

It’s there to show us love.

It’s there to support us.

It knows exactly what is best for us at any given moment.  It is the voice of trust, the voice of faith, the one that will never steer us in the wrong direction.


But sometimes that voice can be drowned out by the constant busy chatter of the thoughts that dominate our mind.


The thoughts that our unconscious mind has on auto repeat.

The thoughts that have been there longer than we care to imagine.

The thoughts that don’t serve us.

The thoughts they are just trying to keep us ‘safe’.

The thoughts that just constantly put us into a state of doubt and worry.

The thoughts that are in fact holding us back from the life we are destined to live.


You see, it’s no coincidence that me living a life trusting that inner voice has got me to where I am right now. I truly believe that I am just following the Devine guidance I am being sent. I am ‘getting out of my own way’ and having complete faith in ‘the plan’. I don’t really know exactly where I am going, but what I know for sure is that it will all be Devinely right for me. How do I know that? Because every time I listen to that guidance, I feel so beautifully supported and truly blessed with what I receive. How do I know when I am not following it? Everything is really hard, it’s like trying to push a square peg into a round hole. No matter which way you try, it’s just never going to fit.


Bless you inner voice – I can hear you. And I am listening. I thank you.



Fear, I See You

Fear has been something that has held me back for much of my life.
The fear of the unknown,

The fear of not being good enough,

The fear of failing…
But the more I love myself for who I am today, the fear starts to subside.
I no longer live for the future and what will be, because all I have is now, and I don’t know what tomorrow will bring.

But that is okay. I have all I need right now, and I feel truly blessed.

Having suffered from depression and anxiety I know only too well how the worry & concern of the past, and that of the future, and it can cripple you.
For when you live in the moment, nothing else matters.
Everyday is a new day for opportunities when I just trust that it will all be how it is supposed to be.
It is all part of the bigger picture, and the more I let go of trying to control that the more at ease my life becomes.
The more I smile and know that everything is going to be okay. But more than okay, it’s just Devinely perfect, just for me.
There is no challenge I can’t overcome, because I know a life of pure darkness, where there was no light. And when I started to discover the light, I realised that you must embrace the dark because that will always be there too. But it doesn’t need to dim your light. Because, there cannot be light without the dark.
The sun must go down before the sun can come up again.
And it does every single day.
And it is beautiful.

Letting Go of Perfectionism and Finding Love Within…

I used to see my life on the outside as typically “perfect”. I had a beautiful family with a loving husband and well behaved children. I was a good person. I was liked by people. I had a home to call my own that was in a good neighbourhood. It was neat and tidy, had nice furniture. I had my own business, a status that I was successful. 

But when I looked into the mirror I was so unhappy. I was thinking how can my life be seemingly “perfect” but I was depressed, sad and feeling disconnected?

I strived my whole life to be perfect in every single way. I was seeking approval outside of myself. Perfect daughter, perfect wife, perfect mum, just perfect me, but it was the perfection that was driving my unhappiness and utter disconnect from everything and everyone in my life. 

I had reached an incredible “dark” pain point, where I felt incredible shame and guilt about not being that “perfect” Jaime anymore. I felt like I had failed miserably. Who was the fraud I was looking at in the mirror?

So as I discovered my self worth, I felt like I was no longer striving for that perfection. I started to be kinder and more compassionate to myself. I started to accept myself for all my imperfections. I started to learn to love myself. And loving yourself unconditionally is the core of who we are. To no longer judge ourselves harshly, or to be overwhelmed with not being good enough. To love ourselves with no conditions. Because at the end of the day, the truth is, we are all doing the best we can with what we know. No matter where we are in our journey of life. 

So as I owned my story, all of it, the good, the bad, and the ugly, I found courage, compassion and connection I didn’t even know existed. I no longer felt unworthy. I stood proud and accepted me, absolutely all of me. The constant fear of not being enough, and the shield I built of perfection to protect that feeling, started to subside. 

And there I was, the authentic me, because I was happy with all of me, and no longer worried about what other people thought. I approved of me for the first time in my life. I truly loved who I was. Because I no longer had to be perfect, I just had to be me. 

How the truth will set you free… But first it will crack you wide open

We all have an inner truth, whether we are aware of it or not. It is at the core of our being. It makes us who we are. And when we allow that truth to surface it can be scary as fuck. Sometimes you’re not even aware it’s a truth within you. And when it’s out, you can’t escape it.


There is something raw and confronting about the truth. You know you cannot hide from it because you KNOW it’s your truth. You can no longer sweep it under the rug, and it hits you like a tonne of bricks. It brings up so much emotion. But at the same time it feels comforting to FEEL your truth.


The inner truth that came out this time last year cracked me so far open that it brought me to my knees. I was completely broken, I was lifeless, but somehow speaking my truth this one particular night, it started to set me free.


Sometimes in life we are gifted with people who can see through the darkness that consumes your life.  They reach out a hand to you, and want to guide you towards the light. They are beautiful souls that grace this life time with their presence. I was blessed by one very special soul.


My life was in absolute disarray.  I had never been so lost in my life. But I reached out to that hand. I felt safe in that hand. That hand was full of light and joy.  Where it was going to take me?  I had no idea. But for the first time in a long time, the gentle voice inside me told me to follow. And so I did. And that was the beginning of my unknown truth being told.


There I was sitting in a room of complete strangers except that one soul that lead me there. The room was packed and I sat in the far back corner alone, feeling very alone. I remember looking out the window and seeing my reflection. I didn’t even know who that person was. I was overwhelmed with sadness.  My spirit was broken. But I had this overriding feeling that I was exactly where I needed to be. I didn’t know why, it just felt right. I felt a sense of comfort in that room.


As I listened attentively to the women that was speaking, she had a beautiful energy about her. You know how sometimes when you walk into a room and you just feel drawn to people. Well that was the feeling I had. I FELT so much of what was spoken. Not just HEARD it.


So for the final part of the evening we were asked to write an ‘I’m sorry letter to our children’. And as I wrote, the words freely flowed. I couldn’t keep up with my hand. It was like every word, was breaking down the walls that I had so comfortably surrounded myself with. The walls of darkness that had held me prisoner within. I had no idea at the time that I was in fact writing my truth. I hadn’t known what my ‘real’ truth was for a very long time.  It was like completing pulling down the blinds, but allowing them to spring all the way back in the same motion. I had hit rock bottom. I was brought to my knees with my head on the ground. But I had fallen forwards. Going backwards was no longer an option.


Although I didn’t realise it at the time, it was the beginning of my truth that set me free. I feel more FREE today, than ever before in my life. And it feels fucking amazing. The more I stand proudly with my truth, the more free I become. And although logically I should be fearful of that, I’m not. It empowers me, because the truth WILL set you free.


The TRUTH is the good, the bad and the ugly within you…


It is YOU. All of you.

With any New Beginning, there must be an Ending

As with any new beginning in life, there must be an ending.  There must be a goodbye, before there is a new hello.


Sometimes it feels incredibly difficult to let go of something you have held within for so long. But just like the ending of the caterpillars life, it must cease in order for the butterfly to transform. If the caterpillar held onto the ‘identity’ it had of itself it would never become the beautiful butterfly it was meant to be.


Upon the dawn of a new year, I have an overwhelming feeling of sadness. It’s not a sadness that my life is not what I want it to be, but a feeling that there is something that needs to be released within me. Like the ‘old self’ that I spent so much of last year changing. The identity that I’ve known myself to be for much of my life. It’s like saying goodbye to a trusted friend that can no longer continue on the journey with you. Although it may seemed to have been loyal and supportive, it no longer serves the person you are today. And it is hard to say goodbye. It’s hard because it feels like once you say goodbye, there is no going back from that.


So as I see in 2017, I feel drawn back to the memories of where I was this time last year. Where my world was absolutely falling apart.  And although my life is completely different now, it feels like I never really said goodbye to that part of me. I never really acknowledged that ‘ending’ of the life that I lived for so long. So the beginning of 2017 feels like the perfect time to be present with that feeling, and acknowledge that ending. And to let the past go.


Not that long ago, I would try to reprise my feelings and bottle them up so I wouldn’t feel the pain. But this time I am allowing myself to go there. Because in order to heal it, you must “feel” it. If you don’t heal it, it stays in your spirit and will continue to come back in various ways until you are ready to acknowledge it and move past it. That’s why this has come up for me right now.  The feelings have come up not to hurt you, but to learn from it and grow. Yes there is pain in growth, but that is where the magic lies. The magic lies on the other side of the pain.  Much of the pain I held in 2016 served me incredibly well and has given me a completely new outlook on life. I wouldn’t have the beautiful life I have right now if I didn’t go through that. Because the thing with life is that it is ever changing to enable us to grow. Either something is starting, your riding through it, or something old is finishing. That is the cycle of life.


So as I sit with that feeling right now, I know exactly what it is I need to do. To listen to my inner voice and allow the emotions deep inside to come out. To finally allow myself so say goodbye. Once I’ve given myself the time to do that, I can then see the new beginnings for exactly what they are. Every day is an opportunity for something new, or to let go of what no longer serves you in your life. Yes 1st January is the beginning of the year, but it is a day just like all the other 364 days in the year. At any point, in any day of your life, you have a choice to create new beginnings or complete an ending. So today, the beginning of 2017, I am going to embrace my ending, and will allow my beginning to enter my heart when it’s ready. Because in order for me to continue on to the next chapter of my life, I must create the space for the new to come in.